When I put the candle on her cake, Nick asked me if I had forgot to get her a candle. I was offended that he would think I was so neglectful, and told him I had bought it with the other birthday stuff. So he asked why I bought a 4 instead of a 5, and even then it took me a second to realize what I had done. Luckily, Rylee was only interested in blowing out the candle.
From the time I was little I always looked forward to something later on in life, and wishing the time away until that time came. Turning 16 and being able to drive, junior prom, graduation, getting married, and having kids. Time seemed to go by so slow, always waiting for the future. And then I had Rylee, and my boys of course, but Rylee was my first. I am no longer waiting for anything to happen, I just want time to slow down to prolong every day I have with my children, to do more with them and love them. I try to memorize everything they say and do, write it down, but going back through my journal it is not the same. It is not that I don't want them to grow up, I love and look forward to watching them grow and experiencing new things. I just wish that maybe one day would last as long as a year, that I just had more time to enjoy them. But I guess that is why we should make each day count. One of Nick and I's favorite thing about Rylee is when we pick up her, from school, primary or whatever. She is always so excited to see us. When I pick her up from preschool, from the moment she see me she runs yelling "Mama, Mama", then gives me the biggest hug when she reaches me. It makes my day. Rylee is such a joy in our lives and I love her so much, and I am so thankful she is our little Princess.